The Water

It comes in waves. 

The pain the loneliness the self loathing. 

But lately... 

Lately it's a tsunami. 

That I'm constantly drowning in. 

The cold water tearing at my skin. 

The salt burning my throat. 

The power of the current pulling me down deeper and darker every minute. 

It gets stronger and stronger. 

My tears raise the water even higher. 

Why can't I swim why does no one pull me out why does no one try to rescue me. 

Why does no one see me. 

They see me. The seem me on the verge of being caught up in the water forever. 

And they do nothing. 

And I drown.